WhAt A DaY.....!!!!!


Well, dumating si jojo sa bahay sa cubao at around mga 7 am, sobra, medyo kinakabahan ako kasi baka hindi maubos yung dala kong lugaw and spag. medyo kabado kung pano ko ididispatch yun...pero praise you God kasi naubos lahat! me gusto pang bumili kaya lang ubos na talaga e. I was so overwhelmed as in.

then si jojo naman e naghanap na agad ng bahay sa me mandaluyong.sobra, ang bait bait niya as in. napakaswerte ko talaga...then naghanap kami sa may bandang mandaluyong. sobrang pagod at gutom na kami...then pumunta na lang kami sa me centerpoint. wala naman kasi kaming nakita na matino sa me mandaluyong e. tapos bumili na lang kami ng kutsilyo sa me sm at ng adaptor ko.

kumain kami sa me ilocanas and hinatid niya ako till cubao. ang sarap ng feeling na alam mo na anjan palagi ang mahal mo...i am really blessed!


furthermore, binigay ko na pala ang resignation ko last monday, dec 6. iniwan ko lang sa me lamesa ng boss ko and deadma lang, bigla na lang pinirmahan. I know this is the best thing to do. Ive dreamed about this so many times before pero ngayon lang natupad and me blessing pa kasi me trabaho akong mas maganda pa. Salamat Panginoon sa lahat ng ito, though diko alam ang magiging kapalaran ko dito sa GLobe, alam ko naman na gagabayan mo ako dahil ikaw ang nagbigay nito sa akin, I will always take note that wherever this may take me...your hands is behind it. Lord, I trust you fully...please assist me and lead me the way.


kaninang umaga, nagdala ako ng sopas with egg at spaghetti, nakakatawa kasi andami na palang naghahanap sa akin bago ako dumating...dahil nga hinihintay yung dadalhin kong agahan, nahihiya nga ako dun sa isang nagdadala din - pero wala akong magagawa dahil kelangan kong kumita ng pera para sa future namin ng baby ko. Jojo is doing his part, kaya fair lang na gawin ko ang part ko. kung iisipin, wala pa sa katiting ng sinasakripisyo ni jojo ang ginagawa ko. Jojo will wake up at 6 am just to fix all the paninda and he will go to my place at cubao and then he will hatid me till office, then punta siya sa cooking lesson nya tapos maghahanap siya ng bahay for us, tuloy tuloy na yun hanggang 4:30 when he will fetch me and maghahanap ulit kami ng bahay, sobrang pasensyoso talaga niya. minsan mainit pa ang ulo ko considering nasa loob lang ako ng office na aircon samantalang siya nasa kalsada at naghahanap ng bahay. Lord, forgive me if sometimes unfair ako sa husband ko. kung diko narereciprocate ang mga sacrifices niya. I want to serve him coz it is my duty to serve my husband, pls help me to be obedient and humble in his eyes, i also want to be a good wife to him. salamat po. tomorrow, im wondering kung magtitinda ulit ako...galing kasi ako sa montalban e...bahala na po. continue to bless our business, amen.

A Big Leap of Faith

We started yesterday, I bought some sopas and spaghetti in the office, at first I am kind'a worried that they may dislike the taste because I have'nt tasted it yet...But praise God, they liked it. Many people are asking for it and they said they will order again tomorrow. Ubos lahat ng tinda ko Lord, and we earned P90 just for agahan, Im planning to do it tomorrow as many people assured me that they will buy. I was kind'a overwhelmed. I dont mind what they think about me but this experience brought our the "entrepreneur" inside me. I am very happy. Jojo came to the house at cubao at about 7 am , sooo early and he accompanied me up to my office. It was so sweet. After that he went to see an apartment that he inquired about at Mandaluyong, the whole day he is busy fixing things for us. I am so blessed to have a very sweet, loving and thoughtful husband, He had my organizer with him, and when I opened it...I saw a letter in one page of it...and I was stunned when I read it. It was not just an ordinary letter but it is a letter full of love, understanding and assurance that everything will be ok. He said that he will be the one in charge and he said that he will never ever let me go back to my mother. He wants me to be with him forever. I love you Lord, I dont deserve this but You God gave me so much. Please help me serve you...give me the urge to go back to the church. I miss you so much Jesus, I want to be with you always, sometimes i feel like giving up but you are the one who gives me encouragement and faith to go on....thank you Lord. amen.

i lOVe my HusbAnd...sobra!

Yesterday we had a very touching conversation ... I was kind'a worried about what will happen to our future kasi. We went to the apartment that we'll gonna rent and its nice - just enough for the two of us and we are decided to get it. Suddenly, I felt a great fear inside - Fear of failure, insufficiency, uncertainty - all the fear that leads me to saying no to jojo. I know it hurts him a lot and he was so sad. He talked to me about it and he let me decide about what will happen next. He asked me if i am willing to go with him and give my 100% trust. But you Lord knows how I fear our life together. I fear we cant afford to live together and start a family at this stage in my life where so many changes occured, but he assured me that we can go on this life together. He just asked me to trust him completely and he will never let go of this relationship. He said he will be with me all the way, through all the smooth and rough roads. I thank you Lord for giving me such a patient and understanding boyfriend, I know that this too is your will for us. Lord, guide us. I trust you completely with my life. amen.

YOU ARE LEADING THE WAY


You Lord are the one who gave me this ideas - Lord, kayo rin po ang gagabay sa amin. Yesterday, Jojo went to San Juan to talk to Papa - medyo parang di raw
cooperative si papa sa plano namin, yes he is willing to help pero not that eager. Furthermore, walang mahanap na blank receipt si jo - nag-ikot na daw siya sa san juan and yet walang pumapayag na mag-bigay. Pero habang nag-tatanong siya, nakahanap siya ng tutuluyan namin, its a studio type lang naman pero cute daw. P4500 ang rent. Lord, if this is your will for us, help us to accomplish this.
Nag-usap kami last night and he is decided talaga, alam ko na he is a responsible person kaya lang ayaw ko naman na lagi na lang siyang susunod sa lahat ng gusto ko. Siya ang magiging padre de pamilya and yet he is not strong enough - im not sure, he always wants to please me - kaya ang tendency lagi na lang siyang nagpapatalo sa akin which is wrong. I should learn to obey him always. Lord help me to be obedient as a wife should be to his husband, continue to bless us Lord. Plan to go to midweek service later - help us.


A bad news (?) also came. Our contact in the office was scheduled for the afternoon shift! Lord, pano to? Pero naisip ko na meron pa namang meryenda and dinner, alam ko na ikaw ang tutulong sa amin sa business namin. Jojo is very eager to have this, I dont want to tell it to him kasi baka mawalan siya ng loob.Pero I know there is other way, I will talk to the guard, I know God will give me a brighter idea, pls guide us and help us in this. amen.

It Seems Like A Dream....


I never thought things that I am only wishing before would come my way right now...everything seems to fit into my plans, doors are opening one after another. Lord, I thank you for a beautiful life.
Things came smoothly with regards to our business plan, we together with Jojo and the person in charge of the company food, had a meeting yesterday at Bacolod Inasal. It was such a great experience being the one in charge. I am surprised that all my requests and suggestions were granted. But Lord, help us in this new endeavor. I dont know what will happens but I pray that your loving hands will be the one holding this business. We will start next week, starting with a whooping 80 persons per day for agahan, meryenda, tanghalian, and dinner... Lord i know you will use people to make this business a success.

My intentions are good, i want to help my papa and mama - i want them to experience life away from scarcity - i hope through this
business venture of ours - we'll be able to attain that goal.


my resignation is fast approaching, i will definitely miss my friends - all the kalokohans of import department, they are persuading me to stay but i know that you are the one who gave me this opportunity with globe, i will not fear for you said in your words that you will be with me and you will show the way....

I will follow your will Lord, I hope you will be glorified in everything I do. amen.

I dreamt about our marriage ....


Last night- i dreamt about my upcoming marriage with Jojo, its kind'a scary. I dont know why
I felt that way, it seems so real! In my dream, I am asking my Kuya Elmer about Jojo's
whereabouts - and he said he does'nt know. then Jojo suddenly appeared as if he was trying to
surprise me. I dont know whats the meaning of that, can it be that when I felt Jojo was not around to support me - He was there all along? Just when I thought I was alone, Jojo was there
beside me. I am not sure, the only certain thing I know right now is that I love Jojo so much and I hope our present situation will change eventually...my life as of the moment is like a big wheel.
changing directions from time to time, this is indeed the turning point of my life where God gave me so much challenges and victories along the way.


I miss my friends, I just gave a message to one of my bestfriends that I already have a blogger.
Just to let them know that I miss the old times and I hope that they would be a part of this major change in my life.

By the way, the company already hired someone to replace me - i am training her right now. I dont know what to feel. I have'nt given my resignation yet but they already replaced me. hmp! but im not mad, i am not angry - its just so funny that i need to train the one wholl gonna replace me..hahahah!

i WanT a LiFe!!!

actually I am happy with my life right now...it's just that i have more focus now. I know what I want and I want to be. I want to study further and be the best that I can be. I know in my heart that I have the potentials - its just that I was not given the opportunity. Never in my three years of stay here have I felt that I am really doing something worthwhile and that I enjoy. Lord, I thank you for letting me realize all this things. I am really overwhelmed, kahit na naiistress na yung utak ko ng kung ano anong isipin, still your hand is helping me and guiding me. Lord, I know that I will be tested in this life, help me pass all these. You know my situation right now, i am really broke because of my papa's debt. But still im holding on to your promise that you want me to experience a life that is full and in abundance. Di ko parin po alam kung pano mangyayari sa mga plans namin ni jojo especially the business but i believe ikaw ang nagbigay sa akin ng mga idea na ito, help me not to be discouraged for you are behind all these.
Kayo po ang nagbibigay sa amin ng hope for the future.

Saka nga pala - when I said na i will resign na, they told me that I was eyed to be promoted next year to be a team coordinator with a hope that i will be sent to another country for a training and a salary compensation will be increased, honestly Lord, I was double minded at that time. Why would they tell me those things when its too late! I am really low at that time coz i felt that i have been cheated, why only now? but I cant quit now, besides i dont like the job. I feel that i cant spread my wings in here, convenience and prestige should not be the only indicator of success... it should be the feeling of being you. the feeling that you have the ability to turn things
around, and the ability to be yourself and express yourself. You must love your work so that you wont have to work a single day of your life....

WhAt A GrEaT DaY!!!

remember when i said i wanna quit? yeah, i praise God because I already did! Well di ko pa naman pinapasa ang resignation ko - i will next week, pero im so excited for this new adventure in my life! Yesterday (oct 20) , i was called up to take the final interview in Globe
Telecoms - after one month of long wait, they finally contacted me. Actually I taught talaga na I didnt make it to the interview and to the exam kasi I have so many dumb answers - God really answers. The interviewer was very kind and soft spoken - intelligent too. She is
asking me so many questions simultaneously - sobra, parang hinahalukay ang utak ko! They are asking me if I want to apply being a technical support but I just said that i would just try being a customer service representative for a while and then I will try my luck in tech support. Being with globe is such a big priviledge on my part for it was indeed the best in telecommunications- I am so overwhelmed. Never in my 3 years of stay here have I been so happy like what I feel right now. I am so blessed! Jojo waited for me while I was being interviewed! phew - he waited for almost 3 hours. we just celebrated this victory at megamall. then i have to go to the office because I only filled for a halfday, and he again waited for me at megamall for another 3 hours. Lord, thank you for all this blessings, im sorry if i doubted you. im sorry for all my unbelief- pls help me in this new endeavor of my life. I dont know where this will lead me - but i believe that your loving hands is the one guiding me through this all. Help mama understand and help me make a brand new start through this. amen.

LORD BLESS OUR PLANS

Lord, I dont know if this is your will for us, something inside me says it is - but half of my mind says
think it over...I do love Jojo, more than anyone else-he's been my light in the darkest days of my life-
i am so grateful that we met. God really blessed me with a person so great and wonderful. We are planning to start a business this December - then eventually, get married! Get married? well, yeah, he already
told my father that we are getting married this February. I am excited and at the same time, scared.
I want a change in my life, well this one will definitely be a great change! It will either do me good or harm - Lord, we have been praying for this for a long time and we are asking your hand to guide us to the right
path. Lord, if it is your will for us to be together - so be it. Pls let us know you are in charge and that the path
we are heading to is yours. In his arms I feel that everything will gonna be alright...pls Lord, guide us.

Furthermore, I want to quit this job. I want a carreer not just a merely high paying job. I want to enjoy what I do and I want to have a life, I feel that this job sucks! Lord, pls if it is also your will for me to quit-pls
make a way. Never, ever leave me alone. Help and give me a sign so I could be able to do your will. In your presence alone can I find the true answer I have been waiting for. Thank you Lord and I love you so much.

is this for real ??????



I am not so sure but we already made plans yesterday , I really feel this is the right thing to do. I want a change...a real change in my life. I feel that God is leading me to a different direction - i dont know where it is leading to but i believe that i should only trust in him. Im really worn out in my job - we were expected to be a multitask employee but we are not compensated enough. I am still in a decision making stage and we are fervently praying about this, yesterday Jojo is very eager to go to church so we went first to my rented room in Cubao and we ate our dinner - unfortunately I was so tardy to go...I am so sleepy and I dont know why. Yet Jojo is persuading me to go to church and listen to the sermon so I could regain my faith (of course I still have the faith but not as strong as when I was still going to church) . I am so blessed with my "husband to be" - we are planning to get married this February - he seem so sure about the decision but I am having second thoughts about it. I must think and pray so that whatever decisions we make would glorify the Lord, I know deep in my heart I want to be with him forever but I still must be sure. Whatever happens, I pray God would lead us together to the right path.