i WanT a LiFe!!!

actually I am happy with my life right now...it's just that i have more focus now. I know what I want and I want to be. I want to study further and be the best that I can be. I know in my heart that I have the potentials - its just that I was not given the opportunity. Never in my three years of stay here have I felt that I am really doing something worthwhile and that I enjoy. Lord, I thank you for letting me realize all this things. I am really overwhelmed, kahit na naiistress na yung utak ko ng kung ano anong isipin, still your hand is helping me and guiding me. Lord, I know that I will be tested in this life, help me pass all these. You know my situation right now, i am really broke because of my papa's debt. But still im holding on to your promise that you want me to experience a life that is full and in abundance. Di ko parin po alam kung pano mangyayari sa mga plans namin ni jojo especially the business but i believe ikaw ang nagbigay sa akin ng mga idea na ito, help me not to be discouraged for you are behind all these.
Kayo po ang nagbibigay sa amin ng hope for the future.

Saka nga pala - when I said na i will resign na, they told me that I was eyed to be promoted next year to be a team coordinator with a hope that i will be sent to another country for a training and a salary compensation will be increased, honestly Lord, I was double minded at that time. Why would they tell me those things when its too late! I am really low at that time coz i felt that i have been cheated, why only now? but I cant quit now, besides i dont like the job. I feel that i cant spread my wings in here, convenience and prestige should not be the only indicator of success... it should be the feeling of being you. the feeling that you have the ability to turn things
around, and the ability to be yourself and express yourself. You must love your work so that you wont have to work a single day of your life....