happy birthday bestfriend...

JANUARY 23TH, 2008

happy 28th birthday bestfriend Divine, wherever you are...I know you are happy in God's presence. I may not be able to say to you how much i treasure you as a buddy, as a confidant, as a sister, as a bestfriend...nowhere else in the world can i find a friend as dear as you are...i know if you are still alive...you would call me and tell me to see you to celebrate this special day...but those days were gone and im left alone with nothing to hold on but memories of our beautiful friendship and the pact we uttered that we will always be there for each other...though you're now up there in heaven ...I know the promise we made still remains...and now, I know I dont just have a bestfriend...i now have an ange in youl... i love you so...

To some I may be nothing more than a distant memory..My life on earth is over now, but do you remember me?

I know I wasn't here that long, but God's work for me was through.Please don't try to stop the thoughts of me because I never will of you.

Some may hear or speak my name and vanish the thoughts of me,Why is it now that I am gone no one stops to see?

I'm closer to you now than I ever was before.I love you all just the same and will forever more.So please don't let my memories slowly fade away...For I am still inside your heart, you see, where I will always stay.

Don't think of me as gone forever because someday we'll meet again.Keep me close inside your heart until God tells you when.

You may be there for many years, no one ever knows.So let my memory stay alive as the love inside you grows.

Some of you may wonder why God called for me sooner than you'd planned.But please don't be mad at Him for I'm in the master's hands.

Please remember me with love and with each tear that you cry,Remember I'm beside you still, although I said good-bye.

another year without my bestfriend

Its Divines 2nd death anniversary... grabe, its been two years since i saw her face. Its been hard living without someone that never fails to give you encouragements when you're down, laugh with you even with your corniest jokes and makes you feel special in any way. I really miss her but I know wherever she is...she is so happy kasi kasama nya na si God. Wala lang, i dont know kung me plans for tomorrow, maybe a mass or a small feast to celebrate her life...i dont have the numbers na kasi ng sister nya and her mom. Kahit na diman ako makasama...i know she knew na ive been praying for her and her family always. And to my bestfriend, who i always call my angel, magkikita rin tayo jan someday! I love you!

iT's Divines Death Anniversary...

i woke up today and thought of Divine...and then I realized, hey its Oct. 20 - her 1st year death anniversary... Thanks for reminding me mare! I hope wherever you may be today...You're having a great time!

I love you! You will always be remembered!

My Bestfriends Birthday

It's my bestfriend's birthday today. Usually I text her asking her where will we celebrate her birthday...but now, no reply from her. I can still remember her birthday jan 23, 2003...she keeps on asking me kung what time ako punta sa kanila but i really have no intention of going...
but instead i told her i do have a terrible headache. she is indeed expecting me to come, but i cannot directly tell her that i cant because I dont want her to be dissapointed. Sobra if only I knew that it would be her 2nd to the last birthday...I would have come. I miss her...I miss her a lot!!!! I hope and pray she's happy wherever she is right now....

last few memories....

until now i have'nt recovered yet...i dont know, maybe this is the feeling of someone who lost a very important person in her life...yeah, she's a very important person in my life...ewan ko ba, nung drinadraft namin yung mga abay, naiyak na lang ako bigla. Kasi si Vhine ang maid of honor ko supposedly, pero di man lang niya nahintay ang kasal ko...so sad.

anyway, Ill post some of our conversation thru email so that lagi ko maalala ang mga kakikayan ng bestfriend ko...


Date:
localDateTimewithTimezone("July 17, 2004 6:26 AM","timetag1");
Saturday, July 17, 2004 9:26:00 PM
Subject:
Ms.sexy
Message:
divine wrote:
Print ni lui yung msg. mo. : )Absent daw siya sa birthday nhy...hehehehe.Sa July 24 na daw trit nya, 5pm meeting time...basta hanapin mo sya... pag nakita ninyo ni bading may trit kau...hehehekaya kung ako sau harangin mo na si lui pagpasok sa monday... kung papasok daw siya...as usual KATABI KO SI LUI. : )Ingat ka bestfriend... wag ka na magpa-sexy ok na yan. mas mataba mas maganda. mas delicious sa paningin.. parang ulam... : )Ung pasalubong ko sa saturday na lang para sabay-sabay. kumakain ka ba ng bagoong at cocoa? : ) Love u and mis u. God bless. mwah :)




Date:
localDateTimewithTimezone("July 31, 2004 4:34 AM","timetag1");
Saturday, July 31, 2004 7:34:00 PM
Subject:
Re: Loka!
Message:
divine wrote:
Hi Bestfrend!Tumataba ako ngayon, kain-tulog lang ako sa barko at...... puro kapapahan..... : )Ayoko na isipin yung mga kalokohan ni lui nasisira lnag beauty ko. Kung magloloko siya bahala na siya sa buhay niya. It's not my lost..... i realized that i should enjoy life and be happy... madami naman nagpapasaya sa kin and ur ONE of THEM.Ung pasalubong ko ba sayo binigay ng macho kong bf? yung suha next time na lang kasi di ako nakapamasyal sa Davao.Mag-iingat ka palagi.. Enjoy ur time with Jojo.Sana he's the right one for you.. Si Lui parang malabo. Sometimes i feel, he doesnt deserve me.Madami kasi sya tinatago at lihim.I really miss you and pipa. Hope to see you one day. Mwah mwah mwah.Love you and God bless.Divine

Melanie wrote:> hehehe, lam mo bang pumasok ako nung sunday and > guess kung sino ang una kong nakita...ang jowa > mo! hehehehe...kung minamalas nga naman...> > ok lang sige sa 24 daw ha! di ako nakaluwas nung > sat kasi asa min si jojo at saka masama > pakiramdam ko kaya ayun pahinga na lang....> > > kumusta naman daw yung jowa mong 30 na..hehehe, > joke lang lui a, vhine mabait yang si lui ever...> lam mo bang sikat na sikat yan dito..mr. it man!> dami nagkakacrush pero syempre gwardyado dito > yan, subukan niyang magloko at naku sisiraan ko > siya dito! guguluhin ko ang buhay niya sa maersk!> > ingat ka bestfriend, blessing na naging > kaofficemate ko si papa lui coz at least > nakakabalita ako about you unlike noon na > talagang once in a blue moon nalang tau magkita.> whenever i see him, i remember my ever pretty and > sexy bestfriend. > > > ok tama na to naiiyak na me..basta im always at > your side, tama ka man o mali...kahit mali ka > pagtatanggol kita ke macho man luitot. hehehe\\> > > god bless, misyu, loveyu...til we meet again! > > txt u tom. mwah!



Date:
localDateTimewithTimezone("November 9, 2004 2:24 AM","timetag1");
Tuesday, November 09, 2004 6:24:00 PM
Subject:
Re: vhine - grabe mahal ka talaga ni louie!!!
Message:
divine wrote:
Bestfriend Mimi,Hi! Hows my ever sexy and charming bestfriend? Im here in Davao mall wala magawa sa barko. I decided to go here and open my mail. I missed those times na kapag sad ako anytime i need you and pipa, you're there magkikita na agad tayo. Remember, the night na naglayas ako : ) kayo ang kasama ko. hehehehehe. i really missed those times. Last night a passenger soldier threatened me. He first asked if im single and then asked about my virginity... how gross... gusto kong sampalin nagpigil lang ako. Tapos kinulit ako for my cel# for 5 minutes, nung hindi ko ibinigay tinakot na ako na sya daw ang bahala sa Surigao. tinakot na ko. Pinatawag ko agad ang security natakot talaga ako.... Madami nangyari kwento ko sayo pag uwi ko sa Manila. Regarding Lui, i am really thankful that God gave me a chance to make him part of my life. Pero hanggang dun na lang talaga yon..... dumadating pala ang time na all the magic and love will lasts. Kahit minahal mo ng sobra ang isang tao tapos nasaktan ka, nawala ang trust, kasunod na ang love. I just want to have my life to be peaceful and happy. Ngayon wala ng ex-gf na nanggugulo sa kin.... o mas ok na nagpapa- konsyensya at umiiyak. I am more happy now.Just tell him na masaya na ko and i pray that he will be happy and successful in his life... I have a boyfriend here papakilala ko sya sa inyo ni pipa siguro sa december. : ) i learn a lot from him. Kung paano humarap sa problema at kung paano maging matapang. Sa work namin kelangan kasi malayo kami sa family and close friends. I am planning to have my resignation probably January next year apply na ko for abroad. By then, 8 months na experience ko pwede ng ipanlaban sa labas. : )Bestfriend, thanks for everything. Marami ng nangyari sa buhay ko. Since high school tayo na magkasama.... In my ups and downs, my happiness and sadness, secrets, kalokohan, mga crushes. Im so thankful coz God gave me someone like you. madrama ba? heheheheYou take care lagi ha. I miss you. Regards kay pipa, jojo,odette pati na rin kay louie. : ) \Love you and Godbless! mwah mwah mwah/.

Melanie wrote:>
i received this email from him and i guess > magagalit siya pag pinakita ko to sayo...> i guess you should have at least an idea kung gano > ka niya kamahal! friend, you are so lucky to have > him. maybe before i said things that makes you > think "oo nga no? di naman ako ganun kaswerte ke > louie" - but now ive realized - he really loves you. I > hope you talk it over - i will pray that somehow, > you'll see the different side of the situation. I love > you my friend, im here if you need my two ears.> > love,> mimi> > here goes the email....> > > > its seems like months since i saw her and > talagang namimiss ko na siya... > pero what can i do? it seems that i have loved the > wrong person..> kasi ayaw na nya sa akin.. but still the pain keeps > on hurting me and > kung walang magbibigay ng gamot para > dito sa nararamdaman ko.... baka mamatay na > ako....> > to give you a background about my life, everthing > seems to be fine > then dumating nga sa buhay ko yung > pinakamagandang babe na > yon.... hehehehe.... i thought hanggang friends > lang kami> kaso lang iba na ang nangyari as time passes > by.....> > nakilala ko sya sa church. pare pa nga ang > tawagan namin nung una.... o db ang sweet? > di na ako iba sa kanya and ganon na rin sya sa > akin.... kung > di nga lang ako mahiyain nun baka yayain ko na > sya iuwi nun sa bahay namin and baka> lahat ng gawaing pang brusko eh gawin ko para > lang sa kanya..... pero > cyempre naman shy type nga talaga ako noh!!> > fiesta nun sa amin cyempre may party.... wala > cyang date, wla rin ako.... i know > that she knows i wanted to invite her to be my date > pero

farewell to you my bestfriend!!!

I lost my bestfriend last oct 20...that was my off. I was busy fixing our house because I was supposed to go in our house in montalban when one of my good friend, odette, texted me asking me not to go home today because of my bestfriend Divine. My heart thumped so fast because of the text so I called Odette up. She told me my bestfriend is gone...at first, i cannot believe my ears so I asked her once again if it's true and she said it is. The first words that came out of my mouth was " Odette, ang laki ng kasalanan natin kay Divine..", having in mind that she is asking me to visit her when she was still in the hospital. Actually I visited her thrice, but on her last request I wasnt able to do that. I never texted her after that because I just want to surprise her when I already had the chance to visit her maybe not in the hospital anymore but in their home where I could see that she's ok already. I hate to see her suffering from the sickness that she had.But now, I will never be able to surprise her...I would never be able to see her again. Not in another 50,60 years from now...I will definitely miss her. After I heard that, I immediately called up Jojo, I want to be with him. I want him to accompany me thru my despair and im happy that jojo is very supportive, in less than 30 mins he's already knocking at the door. Im not so sure if I would collapse after hearing that, being with jojo makes me feel a lot better.Then we proceed to the Paz Funeral Homes, at the entrance, I already saw her name in the list of dead people that would have their wake in that place. I cant believe it! Whenever I see her name, I can sense a feeling of being happy, being at home...but now its a terrifying scene...Louie fetched us at the gate of the funeral home, according to him Divine was still being embalmed as of the moment. So we went straight to the embalming section, and there I saw her cousin Michelle. We hug and cried together - it such a great grief. And there lying in the bed, I saw my
bestfriend - very stiff. I can't believe it up to this day...the person who gave such importance to our friendship..the one who gave me special mention on her salutatory speech, the person who made me her 18th candle, the person who made me feel part of her family, the person who introduced me as her bestfriend in her friends and family members...is gone, lying on that cold bed..lifeless....
i can still remember our last meeting, it was June 24. I received a text message from her while in the office asking me (actually, begging me...) if I could go to Odette's place for San Juan Fiesta.
Actually, it was indeed on my plan that I together with Jojo would go to Odette's place later that night, and her asking me to go and accompany her makes me certain about my decision to go.

I told her Ill gonna fetch her at 8 pm but it was so traffic so she finally gave up and told me to just go directly to Odette's place, anyway, her college friend Jen is already with her so they will go ahead. When I finally came to the vicinity, I texted her... I asked her if they could fetch me im already on the next street...but no one replied, so I went straight and found my barkada and jojo's kada as well. I was looking for her and I saw her hiding in one of my friends shoulder joking so she can surprise me that she is wearing a long wig. She was so pretty in that wig, its as if she never suffered from her recent chemotheraphy session. We laughed all night, she even took a picture of us in her phone and she also took some picture of herself in her phone, as if she was
mesmerized by her gorgeous look. My gay bestfriend Pipa also took a picture of us together and I saw that picture in her wake and I really cried...I never thought that would be the last portrait of us together. Divine had to leave early because her mom, tita linda would definitely get angry if she went home later than the designated time. so we accompanied her together with her college buddies outside the house and I hugged her tight, so tight that she the wig almost drop off her head. I never thought that it would be my last embrace to a very dear friend...and that was it. I will never ever see that lovely smile ever again as long as I live...

I could still remember the time we (me,jojo, pipa, louie (her ex) , and vhine0 went to Bulacan for an overnight swimming - we were
very happy sobra...we are even looking forward another time like this and we planned of being together again in our company outing in montemar. But unfortunately there has been some schedule problems so it was never facilitated. After that she worked as a stewardess at negros navigation...she even gave us foods from Davao as our pasalubong (thru her ex louie, my former officemate also). She was such a thoughtful girl...a very loving and a caring one. At the last day of the wake...we were given the chance to have a speech and a testimonial on how Vhine made an impact in our lives...when it was already my turn, as the bestfriend, I was the second on the line after her mom... I talked about our competition when we were still in highschool, I discussed about how my greatest competitor became my bestfriend...I have a thousand of things to say at that time but I dont know why I only said a few. Maybe because I was nervous, shocked, and most of all...lonely.

Because of her lost, I suddenly realized the importance of time...the importance of family...the importance of close relationship with God. Ive learned that we can never tell when is the moment that God would fetch us to be with Him. Learn to seize the day, always look at the bright side of life...life is too short to worry about small things...


to all my friends- pipa, odette, ruth, malen, syana, mean, shai, jag, pam, pinky, tope, dhang,cel,maricris,mama wendy,mhay, aileen, jen, hannah,kat, atey and many more...
i love you. I will try my best to be a good friend to all of you...


and to my bestfried Divine, who is now my angel....I love you. I hope I have uttered those words personally to you but i know in the email we sent to each other, i know you know that whenever I say I love you at the end of the message ..its from the heart.


as what the song says..."farewell to you my friend..well see each other again...",i know we'll see each other again...maybe not in this lifetime...but in eternity....