Kaya Ko To!!!!


Lord help me this day and all the days of my life...without you wala akong magagawa sa buhay ko. Please help me to be at peace with everyone.Ayoko po ng kaaway or ng di
makasundo. Lord, help me to have my confidence in you alone, me exam na naman kami mayang hapon. Long quiz! Lord help me na maka perfect sa exam namin, tulungan mo po akong maplease ka sa lahat ng bagay. I love you Lord,blog ulit me later...the trainor will discuss about G-cash. btw, naiwan ko pala salamin ko. asked jojo to deliver it to me sa office. thank you for loving us. I love you!

This is the moment...


Remember when I said i am so worried because Globe is'nt calling me yet? Well it did, around 10:30 am,Jan 27, thursday.... my celfone rang! Hr called me up and is asking me to go tomorrow at GT Plaza, 2 pm for the signing of the contract and all other documents! I was really overwhelmed! At last, I would now work on the prestigious Globe Telecom... a dream come true!


We are now on our third week training, grabe! Para akong lumusot sa dulo ng karayom. We 5 exams, 1 long policy exam, and 1 revalida! phew, all in those 15 days of our stay here! grabe talaga! I did my best and i was again overwhelmed because when our trainor told us about our overall standing - I am leading! out of all our batchmates, I got 99.59%..grabe! I cant believe it, sobra!



I also had so many things to be thankful for - and it really pays to trust God wholeheartedly.

this will be the start of my beautiful life in Globe - by faith, I believe!


amen!

IM SORRY I HAVE BEEN FAITHLESS

weeks before this, I know that I have been faithless. I always doubt God's plan for my life. I thought God had left me in a no-win situation. Yesterday, I went to Globe with Jojo and hr told me that my first day of employment will fall sometime February. I was overwhelmed because before I am uncertain of my date of employment but now my mind is clear. I used to cry everytime I am talking heart to heart with Jojo because I am bored, I am lonely not because I dont have something to do - but because I am uncertain of my starting date. questions like -
"what if they overlooked my papers since I was hired last October pa?", "what if the schedule that will be given to me would be on March pa?". Crazy things like that makes me so sad - but all through this hardships, my husband never left me. Instead he gave me words of encouragement and he assures me that God will never allow me to resign if it is not for my own good. God indeed knows the best for me so I have no regrets.


I went to Maersk also after we ate at Megamall and got the chance to be reunited with my best pals. they were so excited to see me and they are planning to go to our place in cubao. I really miss Shai, Pinky, Pam, Jag and Wilky. I hope our friendship will stay the same. furthermore,. Lui my bestfriend's ex, saw me at megamall. He told me that I should have been promoted to be a team leader if I did'nt reisgn. Honestly, I felt a little regret and i asked Jojo to convince me that I have done the right thing and he said just the right words to make me feel at ease. Thanks for all this opportunities, right now i am at meralco and blogging at mh Kuya's desk. I am taking up Enhancing communications skills to prepare for my upcoming job. so far, so good. I must go back to class now. it's almost 12:30. thank you Lord, to you be the Glory forever. amen.

Bye ByE na....

This is my last day in the office...nakakalungkot pero i must move on..hay!
ngayon pa lang namimiss ko na sila..hay naku! Lord i hope na di mabago ang
friendship namin.sobrang nakakalungkot.nagmemo sakin ang mga friends ko, and
parang dream lang to. na tomorrow iba na ang buhay ko. dina ang usual routine na gigising ng 6:30 and papasok ng 8 am. Para ngang di kami nagtatrabaho dahil sobrang saya namin magkakasama nina shai, pam, jag, tope, wilky, pinky at dhang. we were like a real family...hay, naiiyak na ako but i must move on, thank you for letting me know them and for letting me experience all the experiences
i had in here.

I wonder what will my day gonna look like tomorrow...hmmm....

A FarEweLL....

i would definitely miss my friends here at maersk. weve been through a lot as in a lot! all the gimmicks and the chitchat in the office (even its not yet break)..all the kalokohans and the usual okrayan..all the usual morning routines we have! sabi nga nila "mi, wala nito sa globe!"...yeah, i know they are one of a kind and i will never again see such a happy group in other companies but here at maersk.
But i must move on, i know it would be tough but ive decided that i need to be
strong for my family. Ive already talked this over with jojo and I believe that God led the way for me so that ill be able to be in my present situation right now.
I may say I am happy and contented with the way things are flowing in my life...
when God closes a door he opens a hundreds of windows for you..


I forgot to say that after christmas (Dec 30th)..my two bestfriends Malen and Ruth went to our place. Jojo cooked chicken afritada for them. I am happy that they like Jojo for me. I remember when we were still in college, i would introduced to them my boyfriends and if one disagree...i would drop him off. hahaha, it makes me smile whenever I remember those times that we had during college days. I miss those...a lot! I pray God that nothings gonna change with my friendship with my two bestfriends for I intend to keep them in my life forever.


Lord, if it is your will ...pls grant my petitions this year...

1) to be married by September to Jojo at church
2) to trim down this extra 20 lbs that i have! asap!
3) to have a good job and a good working relationship with my co-employee at Globe.
4) to buy a refrigirator and a computer on february this year
5) to be able to have a canteen at the heart of ortigas center
6) business will boom this 2005!
...and many others that my heart longs for. Thank you for a beautiful 2004 and im looking forward for 2005 full of happy memories. amen

A fAmilY of mY OwN

I am very thankful Lord for this wonderful gift you have given me this Christmas... a family of my own. It is such a wonderful experience, I have never imagined that I would be as happy as I am right now. Everyday with Jojo, Im learning new things, I am so blessed to have a Godly husband in Jojo.

Last December 24th, I went to my work. I need to go because noone's gonna do the job tasked for me that day, Jojo fetched me and we went straight to megamall. We bought gifts for my pamangkins and pinsans. We went home to eat and I wrapped all the gifts. At about 9pm, we were ready to go to Montalban because we promised mama that we will be celebrating christmas with her. Jojo bought a cake and off we go to our home. (on our way home, the driver said a jeepney clashed in the mountain on their way down to litex).I asked God mama is safe.

Praise God, mama is safe. When she opened the door for us, she said that Kuya Boyet is inside (he's my drug addict cousin' phew!) Mama is so dismayed but we just assured her that we will not leave her, besides Kuya Edwin is coming also. No need to worry. Kuya edwin came at about 12 am and he brought KFC bucket meal for us. thank you Lord for this wonderful blessings. I love you and Happy Birthday, btw, Wawie called 2am and jojo answered the phone. I hope he would
find the love of his life.

Then on christmas day itself...we helped me, jojo and mama helped Kuya to transfer their things from Makati to Antipolo. Jojo was so tired but for me I know that he will do everything. I know mama want him for me because she told me so. I am so happy that Jojo has found me just when I felt it is the end of my rope already.

We spent overnight in Antipolo and on the afternoon of Dec 26th, we went to Liezl's place in Cubao. we ate so much that I almost vomit! phew! We are entertained by Alexis, Lord i pray you also give us a baby as cute and as loving as alexis coz Jojo is very fond of him.At about 4 pm, we went to Ate Ems place in Munoz. It was like a family reunion with Jojo. It's like formally, I am introducing my husband to them. What a nice feeling.For two nights, I wasnt able to kiss Jojo because my Kuya is so conservative and Jojo does'nt like any bad comments if we will kiss, so we are just contented with occasional stare and holding hands. I think Jojo is sweeter that way.


Kuya Rony prepared sinigang in the evening and it is so tasty so I asked for a second round. We are laughing while eating because they are always teasing Jojo for being so shy.( actually he is not!) mama is so impressed with him because he is a gentleman and a true well mannered person. Ate ems called and say his hellos to jojo as well. We went to our home at about 8 pm and the first thing that we did after we locked our door is to hug and to kiss so deeply. I think its a nice practice, to delay gratification. It's much sweeter when we do that. We saw a vcd we borrowed from Kuya Ronnie "Ocean's Twelve".
But Jojo is sleepy already so off we go to bed. thank you for letting me experience this things. we love you Lord. amen!

this is it!!!

Me bahay na kami!!!

Grabe, I never imagined that this gonna happen in my life! We were blessed to have a studio type apartment in the heart of quezon city, I am so depressed that day. Galing kami sa bahay, we cooked lunch for mama and we went to my boarding house in Cubao also. I told him kung hindi kami makakahanap ng apartment today...ayoko na! I know its not the right words to say kasi i really want to be with him na...but nawalan na ako ng pag-asa na makakita ng maayos na apartment...but you answered God! On our way to my boarding house, an idea popped up on my mind - why not buy a newspaper to help us find our place, so we bought buy and sell and while walking - i read a part of it where they advertise apartments for rent. I come to look at a particular ad and it kind'a move me..maybe the phrase "convenient, fully furnished , newly paint" attracted me to ask Jojo to call it up. We had the chance to see a sarisari store that has a payphone and he immediately dialled the number on the ad. The lady said it is in 12th avenue, just a few blocks away from my present house. I thought it was located in a part of that avenue that is slum, but praise you Lord, it is a nice place. The landlady even lowered the price of the rent without us asking for it. It already have an tall lampshade, a cabinet, electric fan, a cute glass table and event a stove! wow! what can I ask for? I consider it as a blessing and a great favor from above! We immediately gave the downpayment and plan to move on the 19th of December, what a nice place for the two of us, just enough for us to start a family. It has a bathroom inside and one small room, I wonder when will we invite our friends over...I just love this day! I dont know what will happen but I know God will provide for us.

When we were already in my room, a great fear enveloped me. I dont know why but I began to realize the great responsibility that we will be facing if we hopped into this, the burden of paying the montly rent, the monthly electricity and water, our food expenses and how will be able to survive without a ref! and I asked Jojo if we can really surpass all these? I know that he is also uncertain and instead of words of assurance, i heard a voice of doubt as well so i freaked out!


I am sorry Lord, but I know Jojo is also pressured, I know he also needs words of strength and assurance from me as well. I know he will be a great husband, and I love him for being such a good one, Lord, pls guide our way... We are planning to have our civil wedding this February and our church wedding this September, help us in our plans Lord and never ever leave us through this journey were into. amen!

WhAt A DaY.....!!!!!


Well, dumating si jojo sa bahay sa cubao at around mga 7 am, sobra, medyo kinakabahan ako kasi baka hindi maubos yung dala kong lugaw and spag. medyo kabado kung pano ko ididispatch yun...pero praise you God kasi naubos lahat! me gusto pang bumili kaya lang ubos na talaga e. I was so overwhelmed as in.

then si jojo naman e naghanap na agad ng bahay sa me mandaluyong.sobra, ang bait bait niya as in. napakaswerte ko talaga...then naghanap kami sa may bandang mandaluyong. sobrang pagod at gutom na kami...then pumunta na lang kami sa me centerpoint. wala naman kasi kaming nakita na matino sa me mandaluyong e. tapos bumili na lang kami ng kutsilyo sa me sm at ng adaptor ko.

kumain kami sa me ilocanas and hinatid niya ako till cubao. ang sarap ng feeling na alam mo na anjan palagi ang mahal mo...i am really blessed!


furthermore, binigay ko na pala ang resignation ko last monday, dec 6. iniwan ko lang sa me lamesa ng boss ko and deadma lang, bigla na lang pinirmahan. I know this is the best thing to do. Ive dreamed about this so many times before pero ngayon lang natupad and me blessing pa kasi me trabaho akong mas maganda pa. Salamat Panginoon sa lahat ng ito, though diko alam ang magiging kapalaran ko dito sa GLobe, alam ko naman na gagabayan mo ako dahil ikaw ang nagbigay nito sa akin, I will always take note that wherever this may take me...your hands is behind it. Lord, I trust you fully...please assist me and lead me the way.


kaninang umaga, nagdala ako ng sopas with egg at spaghetti, nakakatawa kasi andami na palang naghahanap sa akin bago ako dumating...dahil nga hinihintay yung dadalhin kong agahan, nahihiya nga ako dun sa isang nagdadala din - pero wala akong magagawa dahil kelangan kong kumita ng pera para sa future namin ng baby ko. Jojo is doing his part, kaya fair lang na gawin ko ang part ko. kung iisipin, wala pa sa katiting ng sinasakripisyo ni jojo ang ginagawa ko. Jojo will wake up at 6 am just to fix all the paninda and he will go to my place at cubao and then he will hatid me till office, then punta siya sa cooking lesson nya tapos maghahanap siya ng bahay for us, tuloy tuloy na yun hanggang 4:30 when he will fetch me and maghahanap ulit kami ng bahay, sobrang pasensyoso talaga niya. minsan mainit pa ang ulo ko considering nasa loob lang ako ng office na aircon samantalang siya nasa kalsada at naghahanap ng bahay. Lord, forgive me if sometimes unfair ako sa husband ko. kung diko narereciprocate ang mga sacrifices niya. I want to serve him coz it is my duty to serve my husband, pls help me to be obedient and humble in his eyes, i also want to be a good wife to him. salamat po. tomorrow, im wondering kung magtitinda ulit ako...galing kasi ako sa montalban e...bahala na po. continue to bless our business, amen.

A Big Leap of Faith

We started yesterday, I bought some sopas and spaghetti in the office, at first I am kind'a worried that they may dislike the taste because I have'nt tasted it yet...But praise God, they liked it. Many people are asking for it and they said they will order again tomorrow. Ubos lahat ng tinda ko Lord, and we earned P90 just for agahan, Im planning to do it tomorrow as many people assured me that they will buy. I was kind'a overwhelmed. I dont mind what they think about me but this experience brought our the "entrepreneur" inside me. I am very happy. Jojo came to the house at cubao at about 7 am , sooo early and he accompanied me up to my office. It was so sweet. After that he went to see an apartment that he inquired about at Mandaluyong, the whole day he is busy fixing things for us. I am so blessed to have a very sweet, loving and thoughtful husband, He had my organizer with him, and when I opened it...I saw a letter in one page of it...and I was stunned when I read it. It was not just an ordinary letter but it is a letter full of love, understanding and assurance that everything will be ok. He said that he will be the one in charge and he said that he will never ever let me go back to my mother. He wants me to be with him forever. I love you Lord, I dont deserve this but You God gave me so much. Please help me serve you...give me the urge to go back to the church. I miss you so much Jesus, I want to be with you always, sometimes i feel like giving up but you are the one who gives me encouragement and faith to go on....thank you Lord. amen.

i lOVe my HusbAnd...sobra!

Yesterday we had a very touching conversation ... I was kind'a worried about what will happen to our future kasi. We went to the apartment that we'll gonna rent and its nice - just enough for the two of us and we are decided to get it. Suddenly, I felt a great fear inside - Fear of failure, insufficiency, uncertainty - all the fear that leads me to saying no to jojo. I know it hurts him a lot and he was so sad. He talked to me about it and he let me decide about what will happen next. He asked me if i am willing to go with him and give my 100% trust. But you Lord knows how I fear our life together. I fear we cant afford to live together and start a family at this stage in my life where so many changes occured, but he assured me that we can go on this life together. He just asked me to trust him completely and he will never let go of this relationship. He said he will be with me all the way, through all the smooth and rough roads. I thank you Lord for giving me such a patient and understanding boyfriend, I know that this too is your will for us. Lord, guide us. I trust you completely with my life. amen.