YOU ARE LEADING THE WAY


You Lord are the one who gave me this ideas - Lord, kayo rin po ang gagabay sa amin. Yesterday, Jojo went to San Juan to talk to Papa - medyo parang di raw
cooperative si papa sa plano namin, yes he is willing to help pero not that eager. Furthermore, walang mahanap na blank receipt si jo - nag-ikot na daw siya sa san juan and yet walang pumapayag na mag-bigay. Pero habang nag-tatanong siya, nakahanap siya ng tutuluyan namin, its a studio type lang naman pero cute daw. P4500 ang rent. Lord, if this is your will for us, help us to accomplish this.
Nag-usap kami last night and he is decided talaga, alam ko na he is a responsible person kaya lang ayaw ko naman na lagi na lang siyang susunod sa lahat ng gusto ko. Siya ang magiging padre de pamilya and yet he is not strong enough - im not sure, he always wants to please me - kaya ang tendency lagi na lang siyang nagpapatalo sa akin which is wrong. I should learn to obey him always. Lord help me to be obedient as a wife should be to his husband, continue to bless us Lord. Plan to go to midweek service later - help us.


A bad news (?) also came. Our contact in the office was scheduled for the afternoon shift! Lord, pano to? Pero naisip ko na meron pa namang meryenda and dinner, alam ko na ikaw ang tutulong sa amin sa business namin. Jojo is very eager to have this, I dont want to tell it to him kasi baka mawalan siya ng loob.Pero I know there is other way, I will talk to the guard, I know God will give me a brighter idea, pls guide us and help us in this. amen.

It Seems Like A Dream....


I never thought things that I am only wishing before would come my way right now...everything seems to fit into my plans, doors are opening one after another. Lord, I thank you for a beautiful life.
Things came smoothly with regards to our business plan, we together with Jojo and the person in charge of the company food, had a meeting yesterday at Bacolod Inasal. It was such a great experience being the one in charge. I am surprised that all my requests and suggestions were granted. But Lord, help us in this new endeavor. I dont know what will happens but I pray that your loving hands will be the one holding this business. We will start next week, starting with a whooping 80 persons per day for agahan, meryenda, tanghalian, and dinner... Lord i know you will use people to make this business a success.

My intentions are good, i want to help my papa and mama - i want them to experience life away from scarcity - i hope through this
business venture of ours - we'll be able to attain that goal.


my resignation is fast approaching, i will definitely miss my friends - all the kalokohans of import department, they are persuading me to stay but i know that you are the one who gave me this opportunity with globe, i will not fear for you said in your words that you will be with me and you will show the way....

I will follow your will Lord, I hope you will be glorified in everything I do. amen.

I dreamt about our marriage ....


Last night- i dreamt about my upcoming marriage with Jojo, its kind'a scary. I dont know why
I felt that way, it seems so real! In my dream, I am asking my Kuya Elmer about Jojo's
whereabouts - and he said he does'nt know. then Jojo suddenly appeared as if he was trying to
surprise me. I dont know whats the meaning of that, can it be that when I felt Jojo was not around to support me - He was there all along? Just when I thought I was alone, Jojo was there
beside me. I am not sure, the only certain thing I know right now is that I love Jojo so much and I hope our present situation will change eventually...my life as of the moment is like a big wheel.
changing directions from time to time, this is indeed the turning point of my life where God gave me so much challenges and victories along the way.


I miss my friends, I just gave a message to one of my bestfriends that I already have a blogger.
Just to let them know that I miss the old times and I hope that they would be a part of this major change in my life.

By the way, the company already hired someone to replace me - i am training her right now. I dont know what to feel. I have'nt given my resignation yet but they already replaced me. hmp! but im not mad, i am not angry - its just so funny that i need to train the one wholl gonna replace me..hahahah!

i WanT a LiFe!!!

actually I am happy with my life right now...it's just that i have more focus now. I know what I want and I want to be. I want to study further and be the best that I can be. I know in my heart that I have the potentials - its just that I was not given the opportunity. Never in my three years of stay here have I felt that I am really doing something worthwhile and that I enjoy. Lord, I thank you for letting me realize all this things. I am really overwhelmed, kahit na naiistress na yung utak ko ng kung ano anong isipin, still your hand is helping me and guiding me. Lord, I know that I will be tested in this life, help me pass all these. You know my situation right now, i am really broke because of my papa's debt. But still im holding on to your promise that you want me to experience a life that is full and in abundance. Di ko parin po alam kung pano mangyayari sa mga plans namin ni jojo especially the business but i believe ikaw ang nagbigay sa akin ng mga idea na ito, help me not to be discouraged for you are behind all these.
Kayo po ang nagbibigay sa amin ng hope for the future.

Saka nga pala - when I said na i will resign na, they told me that I was eyed to be promoted next year to be a team coordinator with a hope that i will be sent to another country for a training and a salary compensation will be increased, honestly Lord, I was double minded at that time. Why would they tell me those things when its too late! I am really low at that time coz i felt that i have been cheated, why only now? but I cant quit now, besides i dont like the job. I feel that i cant spread my wings in here, convenience and prestige should not be the only indicator of success... it should be the feeling of being you. the feeling that you have the ability to turn things
around, and the ability to be yourself and express yourself. You must love your work so that you wont have to work a single day of your life....

WhAt A GrEaT DaY!!!

remember when i said i wanna quit? yeah, i praise God because I already did! Well di ko pa naman pinapasa ang resignation ko - i will next week, pero im so excited for this new adventure in my life! Yesterday (oct 20) , i was called up to take the final interview in Globe
Telecoms - after one month of long wait, they finally contacted me. Actually I taught talaga na I didnt make it to the interview and to the exam kasi I have so many dumb answers - God really answers. The interviewer was very kind and soft spoken - intelligent too. She is
asking me so many questions simultaneously - sobra, parang hinahalukay ang utak ko! They are asking me if I want to apply being a technical support but I just said that i would just try being a customer service representative for a while and then I will try my luck in tech support. Being with globe is such a big priviledge on my part for it was indeed the best in telecommunications- I am so overwhelmed. Never in my 3 years of stay here have I been so happy like what I feel right now. I am so blessed! Jojo waited for me while I was being interviewed! phew - he waited for almost 3 hours. we just celebrated this victory at megamall. then i have to go to the office because I only filled for a halfday, and he again waited for me at megamall for another 3 hours. Lord, thank you for all this blessings, im sorry if i doubted you. im sorry for all my unbelief- pls help me in this new endeavor of my life. I dont know where this will lead me - but i believe that your loving hands is the one guiding me through this all. Help mama understand and help me make a brand new start through this. amen.

LORD BLESS OUR PLANS

Lord, I dont know if this is your will for us, something inside me says it is - but half of my mind says
think it over...I do love Jojo, more than anyone else-he's been my light in the darkest days of my life-
i am so grateful that we met. God really blessed me with a person so great and wonderful. We are planning to start a business this December - then eventually, get married! Get married? well, yeah, he already
told my father that we are getting married this February. I am excited and at the same time, scared.
I want a change in my life, well this one will definitely be a great change! It will either do me good or harm - Lord, we have been praying for this for a long time and we are asking your hand to guide us to the right
path. Lord, if it is your will for us to be together - so be it. Pls let us know you are in charge and that the path
we are heading to is yours. In his arms I feel that everything will gonna be alright...pls Lord, guide us.

Furthermore, I want to quit this job. I want a carreer not just a merely high paying job. I want to enjoy what I do and I want to have a life, I feel that this job sucks! Lord, pls if it is also your will for me to quit-pls
make a way. Never, ever leave me alone. Help and give me a sign so I could be able to do your will. In your presence alone can I find the true answer I have been waiting for. Thank you Lord and I love you so much.

is this for real ??????



I am not so sure but we already made plans yesterday , I really feel this is the right thing to do. I want a change...a real change in my life. I feel that God is leading me to a different direction - i dont know where it is leading to but i believe that i should only trust in him. Im really worn out in my job - we were expected to be a multitask employee but we are not compensated enough. I am still in a decision making stage and we are fervently praying about this, yesterday Jojo is very eager to go to church so we went first to my rented room in Cubao and we ate our dinner - unfortunately I was so tardy to go...I am so sleepy and I dont know why. Yet Jojo is persuading me to go to church and listen to the sermon so I could regain my faith (of course I still have the faith but not as strong as when I was still going to church) . I am so blessed with my "husband to be" - we are planning to get married this February - he seem so sure about the decision but I am having second thoughts about it. I must think and pray so that whatever decisions we make would glorify the Lord, I know deep in my heart I want to be with him forever but I still must be sure. Whatever happens, I pray God would lead us together to the right path.

Of all places...dito pa sa Ortigas?!

he came here in the office at about 4:00 pm. he went to our office after he went to the job that he is applying to. I just hope that this is it, I asked him just to wait for me at ministop and he did,
he waited for me for about half an hour and we just went to megamall. On our way in, he confessed that he saw his ex gf MEANN working in the MINISTOP. I was shocked and at the same time quite envious coz he said she talked to him and told him that she is in this job since July pa. I dont know why my heart ached after hearing his stories, I know that their relationship
ended almost two years ago...but i am not sure why a little hurt was felt inside. Maybe because I love JOJO so much, i dont want him to have any connection with this girl i know he loved so much. But i am proud of him, because he had the courage and the honesty to tell the truth to me, meaning he has no intention of hiding it since he is not interested in her anymore. I just love this guy, we just went to my place at cubao and saw a horror movie "they". i love this day, tomorrow he promised that he'll gonna treat me at conggo grill and he'll gonna buy me a chocolate because it's our monthsary, be with us this day God, I love you.

Why do I love you?

-let me count the things that made me head over heels to this guy named GABRIEL ALCERA MAGAY...
1) his pamatay na smile, noone in the world have I seen such an angel like smile in you, an innocent and sincere smile that you show made me shiver inside.
2)his chinito eyes, everyone notices it. whenever he smiles-his eyes vanishes....
3)the way he treats me. he makes me feel im the prettiest even of the prettiest girl in the world. he makes me feel secure and loved, he gives me compliments about the things that he sees about me that i never thought I have all along.
4)for making me laugh, for always putting a smile on my face whenever I see you...
5)for having that faith that everything will be alright, for seeing things brightly in your eyes.for making me feel, life is good because you are around.
6)for making things easier for me. for helping me in anyway you can and for making me believe in my capabilities and all I can do..
7)for assuring me that everything will be alright..for making me believe that life is not that hard at all
8)for giving respect to my parents and for having their approval of our relationship
9) for planning our future and striving harder for us...
10) and most of all, just by existing and coming into my life...and for not making me wait to long.

I love you J0jo, I may never be able to express it all but I hope through this youll be able to understand. You are the last and I intend to spend this lifetime with you... i love you...

THINGS IVE LEARNED ABOUT LOVE

There were certain things that Ive realized about loving someone---
1) this is a game- you will either lose or win
2) when you love someone, you should accept all of what he is, you can never change him unless you yourself will change. learn to appreciate every litte thing he does and don't look for things that are not there in the first place.
3)never compare him to anyone else-you should be the one to give him the security that he needs.Never ever let him feel insecure in any way-that he is not good enough...
4)compliment- make known to him that you appreciate every little piece of goodness he is
showing you.
5)TRUST-whatever the circumstances are, you should always give him the benefit of the
doubt, after all, you know him more than anyone else....