Sunday, December 26, 2004



A fAmilY of mY OwN

I am very thankful Lord for this wonderful gift you have given me this Christmas... a family of my own. It is such a wonderful experience, I have never imagined that I would be as happy as I am right now. Everyday with Jojo, Im learning new things, I am so blessed to have a Godly husband in Jojo.

Last December 24th, I went to my work. I need to go because noone's gonna do the job tasked for me that day, Jojo fetched me and we went straight to megamall. We bought gifts for my pamangkins and pinsans. We went home to eat and I wrapped all the gifts. At about 9pm, we were ready to go to Montalban because we promised mama that we will be celebrating christmas with her. Jojo bought a cake and off we go to our home. (on our way home, the driver said a jeepney clashed in the mountain on their way down to litex).I asked God mama is safe.

Praise God, mama is safe. When she opened the door for us, she said that Kuya Boyet is inside (he's my drug addict cousin' phew!) Mama is so dismayed but we just assured her that we will not leave her, besides Kuya Edwin is coming also. No need to worry. Kuya edwin came at about 12 am and he brought KFC bucket meal for us. thank you Lord for this wonderful blessings. I love you and Happy Birthday, btw, Wawie called 2am and jojo answered the phone. I hope he would
find the love of his life.

Then on christmas day itself...we helped me, jojo and mama helped Kuya to transfer their things from Makati to Antipolo. Jojo was so tired but for me I know that he will do everything. I know mama want him for me because she told me so. I am so happy that Jojo has found me just when I felt it is the end of my rope already.

We spent overnight in Antipolo and on the afternoon of Dec 26th, we went to Liezl's place in Cubao. we ate so much that I almost vomit! phew! We are entertained by Alexis, Lord i pray you also give us a baby as cute and as loving as alexis coz Jojo is very fond of him.At about 4 pm, we went to Ate Ems place in Munoz. It was like a family reunion with Jojo. It's like formally, I am introducing my husband to them. What a nice feeling.For two nights, I wasnt able to kiss Jojo because my Kuya is so conservative and Jojo does'nt like any bad comments if we will kiss, so we are just contented with occasional stare and holding hands. I think Jojo is sweeter that way.


Kuya Rony prepared sinigang in the evening and it is so tasty so I asked for a second round. We are laughing while eating because they are always teasing Jojo for being so shy.( actually he is not!) mama is so impressed with him because he is a gentleman and a true well mannered person. Ate ems called and say his hellos to jojo as well. We went to our home at about 8 pm and the first thing that we did after we locked our door is to hug and to kiss so deeply. I think its a nice practice, to delay gratification. It's much sweeter when we do that. We saw a vcd we borrowed from Kuya Ronnie "Ocean's Twelve".
But Jojo is sleepy already so off we go to bed. thank you for letting me experience this things. we love you Lord. amen!


















Monday, December 13, 2004

this is it!!!

Me bahay na kami!!!

Grabe, I never imagined that this gonna happen in my life! We were blessed to have a studio type apartment in the heart of quezon city, I am so depressed that day. Galing kami sa bahay, we cooked lunch for mama and we went to my boarding house in Cubao also. I told him kung hindi kami makakahanap ng apartment today...ayoko na! I know its not the right words to say kasi i really want to be with him na...but nawalan na ako ng pag-asa na makakita ng maayos na apartment...but you answered God! On our way to my boarding house, an idea popped up on my mind - why not buy a newspaper to help us find our place, so we bought buy and sell and while walking - i read a part of it where they advertise apartments for rent. I come to look at a particular ad and it kind'a move me..maybe the phrase "convenient, fully furnished , newly paint" attracted me to ask Jojo to call it up. We had the chance to see a sarisari store that has a payphone and he immediately dialled the number on the ad. The lady said it is in 12th avenue, just a few blocks away from my present house. I thought it was located in a part of that avenue that is slum, but praise you Lord, it is a nice place. The landlady even lowered the price of the rent without us asking for it. It already have an tall lampshade, a cabinet, electric fan, a cute glass table and event a stove! wow! what can I ask for? I consider it as a blessing and a great favor from above! We immediately gave the downpayment and plan to move on the 19th of December, what a nice place for the two of us, just enough for us to start a family. It has a bathroom inside and one small room, I wonder when will we invite our friends over...I just love this day! I dont know what will happen but I know God will provide for us.

When we were already in my room, a great fear enveloped me. I dont know why but I began to realize the great responsibility that we will be facing if we hopped into this, the burden of paying the montly rent, the monthly electricity and water, our food expenses and how will be able to survive without a ref! and I asked Jojo if we can really surpass all these? I know that he is also uncertain and instead of words of assurance, i heard a voice of doubt as well so i freaked out!


I am sorry Lord, but I know Jojo is also pressured, I know he also needs words of strength and assurance from me as well. I know he will be a great husband, and I love him for being such a good one, Lord, pls guide our way... We are planning to have our civil wedding this February and our church wedding this September, help us in our plans Lord and never ever leave us through this journey were into. amen!

















Tuesday, December 07, 2004

WhAt A DaY.....!!!!!


Well, dumating si jojo sa bahay sa cubao at around mga 7 am, sobra, medyo kinakabahan ako kasi baka hindi maubos yung dala kong lugaw and spag. medyo kabado kung pano ko ididispatch yun...pero praise you God kasi naubos lahat! me gusto pang bumili kaya lang ubos na talaga e. I was so overwhelmed as in.

then si jojo naman e naghanap na agad ng bahay sa me mandaluyong.sobra, ang bait bait niya as in. napakaswerte ko talaga...then naghanap kami sa may bandang mandaluyong. sobrang pagod at gutom na kami...then pumunta na lang kami sa me centerpoint. wala naman kasi kaming nakita na matino sa me mandaluyong e. tapos bumili na lang kami ng kutsilyo sa me sm at ng adaptor ko.

kumain kami sa me ilocanas and hinatid niya ako till cubao. ang sarap ng feeling na alam mo na anjan palagi ang mahal mo...i am really blessed!


furthermore, binigay ko na pala ang resignation ko last monday, dec 6. iniwan ko lang sa me lamesa ng boss ko and deadma lang, bigla na lang pinirmahan. I know this is the best thing to do. Ive dreamed about this so many times before pero ngayon lang natupad and me blessing pa kasi me trabaho akong mas maganda pa. Salamat Panginoon sa lahat ng ito, though diko alam ang magiging kapalaran ko dito sa GLobe, alam ko naman na gagabayan mo ako dahil ikaw ang nagbigay nito sa akin, I will always take note that wherever this may take me...your hands is behind it. Lord, I trust you fully...please assist me and lead me the way.


kaninang umaga, nagdala ako ng sopas with egg at spaghetti, nakakatawa kasi andami na palang naghahanap sa akin bago ako dumating...dahil nga hinihintay yung dadalhin kong agahan, nahihiya nga ako dun sa isang nagdadala din - pero wala akong magagawa dahil kelangan kong kumita ng pera para sa future namin ng baby ko. Jojo is doing his part, kaya fair lang na gawin ko ang part ko. kung iisipin, wala pa sa katiting ng sinasakripisyo ni jojo ang ginagawa ko. Jojo will wake up at 6 am just to fix all the paninda and he will go to my place at cubao and then he will hatid me till office, then punta siya sa cooking lesson nya tapos maghahanap siya ng bahay for us, tuloy tuloy na yun hanggang 4:30 when he will fetch me and maghahanap ulit kami ng bahay, sobrang pasensyoso talaga niya. minsan mainit pa ang ulo ko considering nasa loob lang ako ng office na aircon samantalang siya nasa kalsada at naghahanap ng bahay. Lord, forgive me if sometimes unfair ako sa husband ko. kung diko narereciprocate ang mga sacrifices niya. I want to serve him coz it is my duty to serve my husband, pls help me to be obedient and humble in his eyes, i also want to be a good wife to him. salamat po. tomorrow, im wondering kung magtitinda ulit ako...galing kasi ako sa montalban e...bahala na po. continue to bless our business, amen.




Monday, December 06, 2004

A Big Leap of Faith

We started yesterday, I bought some sopas and spaghetti in the office, at first I am kind'a worried that they may dislike the taste because I have'nt tasted it yet...But praise God, they liked it. Many people are asking for it and they said they will order again tomorrow. Ubos lahat ng tinda ko Lord, and we earned P90 just for agahan, Im planning to do it tomorrow as many people assured me that they will buy. I was kind'a overwhelmed. I dont mind what they think about me but this experience brought our the "entrepreneur" inside me. I am very happy. Jojo came to the house at cubao at about 7 am , sooo early and he accompanied me up to my office. It was so sweet. After that he went to see an apartment that he inquired about at Mandaluyong, the whole day he is busy fixing things for us. I am so blessed to have a very sweet, loving and thoughtful husband, He had my organizer with him, and when I opened it...I saw a letter in one page of it...and I was stunned when I read it. It was not just an ordinary letter but it is a letter full of love, understanding and assurance that everything will be ok. He said that he will be the one in charge and he said that he will never ever let me go back to my mother. He wants me to be with him forever. I love you Lord, I dont deserve this but You God gave me so much. Please help me serve you...give me the urge to go back to the church. I miss you so much Jesus, I want to be with you always, sometimes i feel like giving up but you are the one who gives me encouragement and faith to go on....thank you Lord. amen.



Thursday, November 25, 2004

i lOVe my HusbAnd...sobra!


Yesterday we had a very touching conversation ... I was kind'a worried about what will happen to our future kasi. We went to the apartment that we'll gonna rent and its nice - just enough for the two of us and we are decided to get it. Suddenly, I felt a great fear inside - Fear of failure, insufficiency, uncertainty - all the fear that leads me to saying no to jojo. I know it hurts him a lot and he was so sad. He talked to me about it and he let me decide about what will happen next. He asked me if i am willing to go with him and give my 100% trust. But you Lord knows how I fear our life together. I fear we cant afford to live together and start a family at this stage in my life where so many changes occured, but he assured me that we can go on this life together. He just asked me to trust him completely and he will never let go of this relationship. He said he will be with me all the way, through all the smooth and rough roads. I thank you Lord for giving me such a patient and understanding boyfriend, I know that this too is your will for us. Lord, guide us. I trust you completely with my life. amen.

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

YOU ARE LEADING THE WAY


You Lord are the one who gave me this ideas - Lord, kayo rin po ang gagabay sa amin. Yesterday, Jojo went to San Juan to talk to Papa - medyo parang di raw
cooperative si papa sa plano namin, yes he is willing to help pero not that eager. Furthermore, walang mahanap na blank receipt si jo - nag-ikot na daw siya sa san juan and yet walang pumapayag na mag-bigay. Pero habang nag-tatanong siya, nakahanap siya ng tutuluyan namin, its a studio type lang naman pero cute daw. P4500 ang rent. Lord, if this is your will for us, help us to accomplish this.
Nag-usap kami last night and he is decided talaga, alam ko na he is a responsible person kaya lang ayaw ko naman na lagi na lang siyang susunod sa lahat ng gusto ko. Siya ang magiging padre de pamilya and yet he is not strong enough - im not sure, he always wants to please me - kaya ang tendency lagi na lang siyang nagpapatalo sa akin which is wrong. I should learn to obey him always. Lord help me to be obedient as a wife should be to his husband, continue to bless us Lord. Plan to go to midweek service later - help us.


A bad news (?) also came. Our contact in the office was scheduled for the afternoon shift! Lord, pano to? Pero naisip ko na meron pa namang meryenda and dinner, alam ko na ikaw ang tutulong sa amin sa business namin. Jojo is very eager to have this, I dont want to tell it to him kasi baka mawalan siya ng loob.Pero I know there is other way, I will talk to the guard, I know God will give me a brighter idea, pls guide us and help us in this. amen.










Monday, November 22, 2004

It Seems Like A Dream....


I never thought things that I am only wishing before would come my way right now...everything seems to fit into my plans, doors are opening one after another. Lord, I thank you for a beautiful life.
Things came smoothly with regards to our business plan, we together with Jojo and the person in charge of the company food, had a meeting yesterday at Bacolod Inasal. It was such a great experience being the one in charge. I am surprised that all my requests and suggestions were granted. But Lord, help us in this new endeavor. I dont know what will happens but I pray that your loving hands will be the one holding this business. We will start next week, starting with a whooping 80 persons per day for agahan, meryenda, tanghalian, and dinner... Lord i know you will use people to make this business a success.

My intentions are good, i want to help my papa and mama - i want them to experience life away from scarcity - i hope through this
business venture of ours - we'll be able to attain that goal.


my resignation is fast approaching, i will definitely miss my friends - all the kalokohans of import department, they are persuading me to stay but i know that you are the one who gave me this opportunity with globe, i will not fear for you said in your words that you will be with me and you will show the way....

I will follow your will Lord, I hope you will be glorified in everything I do. amen.



Wednesday, November 17, 2004

I dreamt about our marriage ....


Last night- i dreamt about my upcoming marriage with Jojo, its kind'a scary. I dont know why
I felt that way, it seems so real! In my dream, I am asking my Kuya Elmer about Jojo's
whereabouts - and he said he does'nt know. then Jojo suddenly appeared as if he was trying to
surprise me. I dont know whats the meaning of that, can it be that when I felt Jojo was not around to support me - He was there all along? Just when I thought I was alone, Jojo was there
beside me. I am not sure, the only certain thing I know right now is that I love Jojo so much and I hope our present situation will change eventually...my life as of the moment is like a big wheel.
changing directions from time to time, this is indeed the turning point of my life where God gave me so much challenges and victories along the way.


I miss my friends, I just gave a message to one of my bestfriends that I already have a blogger.
Just to let them know that I miss the old times and I hope that they would be a part of this major change in my life.

By the way, the company already hired someone to replace me - i am training her right now. I dont know what to feel. I have'nt given my resignation yet but they already replaced me. hmp! but im not mad, i am not angry - its just so funny that i need to train the one wholl gonna replace me..hahahah!


Wednesday, October 27, 2004

i WanT a LiFe!!!


actually I am happy with my life right now...it's just that i have more focus now. I know what I want and I want to be. I want to study further and be the best that I can be. I know in my heart that I have the potentials - its just that I was not given the opportunity. Never in my three years of stay here have I felt that I am really doing something worthwhile and that I enjoy. Lord, I thank you for letting me realize all this things. I am really overwhelmed, kahit na naiistress na yung utak ko ng kung ano anong isipin, still your hand is helping me and guiding me. Lord, I know that I will be tested in this life, help me pass all these. You know my situation right now, i am really broke because of my papa's debt. But still im holding on to your promise that you want me to experience a life that is full and in abundance. Di ko parin po alam kung pano mangyayari sa mga plans namin ni jojo especially the business but i believe ikaw ang nagbigay sa akin ng mga idea na ito, help me not to be discouraged for you are behind all these.
Kayo po ang nagbibigay sa amin ng hope for the future.

Saka nga pala - when I said na i will resign na, they told me that I was eyed to be promoted next year to be a team coordinator with a hope that i will be sent to another country for a training and a salary compensation will be increased, honestly Lord, I was double minded at that time. Why would they tell me those things when its too late! I am really low at that time coz i felt that i have been cheated, why only now? but I cant quit now, besides i dont like the job. I feel that i cant spread my wings in here, convenience and prestige should not be the only indicator of success... it should be the feeling of being you. the feeling that you have the ability to turn things
around, and the ability to be yourself and express yourself. You must love your work so that you wont have to work a single day of your life....

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

WhAt A GrEaT DaY!!!

remember when i said i wanna quit? yeah, i praise God because I already did! Well di ko pa naman pinapasa ang resignation ko - i will next week, pero im so excited for this new adventure in my life! Yesterday (oct 20) , i was called up to take the final interview in Globe
Telecoms - after one month of long wait, they finally contacted me. Actually I taught talaga na I didnt make it to the interview and to the exam kasi I have so many dumb answers - God really answers. The interviewer was very kind and soft spoken - intelligent too. She is
asking me so many questions simultaneously - sobra, parang hinahalukay ang utak ko! They are asking me if I want to apply being a technical support but I just said that i would just try being a customer service representative for a while and then I will try my luck in tech support. Being with globe is such a big priviledge on my part for it was indeed the best in telecommunications- I am so overwhelmed. Never in my 3 years of stay here have I been so happy like what I feel right now. I am so blessed! Jojo waited for me while I was being interviewed! phew - he waited for almost 3 hours. we just celebrated this victory at megamall. then i have to go to the office because I only filled for a halfday, and he again waited for me at megamall for another 3 hours. Lord, thank you for all this blessings, im sorry if i doubted you. im sorry for all my unbelief- pls help me in this new endeavor of my life. I dont know where this will lead me - but i believe that your loving hands is the one guiding me through this all. Help mama understand and help me make a brand new start through this. amen.

Monday, October 11, 2004

LORD BLESS OUR PLANS

Lord, I dont know if this is your will for us, something inside me says it is - but half of my mind says
think it over...I do love Jojo, more than anyone else-he's been my light in the darkest days of my life-
i am so grateful that we met. God really blessed me with a person so great and wonderful. We are planning to start a business this December - then eventually, get married! Get married? well, yeah, he already
told my father that we are getting married this February. I am excited and at the same time, scared.
I want a change in my life, well this one will definitely be a great change! It will either do me good or harm - Lord, we have been praying for this for a long time and we are asking your hand to guide us to the right
path. Lord, if it is your will for us to be together - so be it. Pls let us know you are in charge and that the path
we are heading to is yours. In his arms I feel that everything will gonna be alright...pls Lord, guide us.

Furthermore, I want to quit this job. I want a carreer not just a merely high paying job. I want to enjoy what I do and I want to have a life, I feel that this job sucks! Lord, pls if it is also your will for me to quit-pls
make a way. Never, ever leave me alone. Help and give me a sign so I could be able to do your will. In your presence alone can I find the true answer I have been waiting for. Thank you Lord and I love you so much.

Thursday, October 07, 2004

is this for real ??????



I am not so sure but we already made plans yesterday , I really feel this is the right thing to do. I want a change...a real change in my life. I feel that God is leading me to a different direction - i dont know where it is leading to but i believe that i should only trust in him. Im really worn out in my job - we were expected to be a multitask employee but we are not compensated enough. I am still in a decision making stage and we are fervently praying about this, yesterday Jojo is very eager to go to church so we went first to my rented room in Cubao and we ate our dinner - unfortunately I was so tardy to go...I am so sleepy and I dont know why. Yet Jojo is persuading me to go to church and listen to the sermon so I could regain my faith (of course I still have the faith but not as strong as when I was still going to church) . I am so blessed with my "husband to be" - we are planning to get married this February - he seem so sure about the decision but I am having second thoughts about it. I must think and pray so that whatever decisions we make would glorify the Lord, I know deep in my heart I want to be with him forever but I still must be sure. Whatever happens, I pray God would lead us together to the right path.

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Of all places...dito pa sa Ortigas?!

he came here in the office at about 4:00 pm. he went to our office after he went to the job that he is applying to. I just hope that this is it, I asked him just to wait for me at ministop and he did,
he waited for me for about half an hour and we just went to megamall. On our way in, he confessed that he saw his ex gf MEANN working in the MINISTOP. I was shocked and at the same time quite envious coz he said she talked to him and told him that she is in this job since July pa. I dont know why my heart ached after hearing his stories, I know that their relationship
ended almost two years ago...but i am not sure why a little hurt was felt inside. Maybe because I love JOJO so much, i dont want him to have any connection with this girl i know he loved so much. But i am proud of him, because he had the courage and the honesty to tell the truth to me, meaning he has no intention of hiding it since he is not interested in her anymore. I just love this guy, we just went to my place at cubao and saw a horror movie "they". i love this day, tomorrow he promised that he'll gonna treat me at conggo grill and he'll gonna buy me a chocolate because it's our monthsary, be with us this day God, I love you.

Sunday, August 15, 2004

Why do I love you?

-let me count the things that made me head over heels to this guy named GABRIEL ALCERA MAGAY...
1) his pamatay na smile, noone in the world have I seen such an angel like smile in you, an innocent and sincere smile that you show made me shiver inside.
2)his chinito eyes, everyone notices it. whenever he smiles-his eyes vanishes....
3)the way he treats me. he makes me feel im the prettiest even of the prettiest girl in the world. he makes me feel secure and loved, he gives me compliments about the things that he sees about me that i never thought I have all along.
4)for making me laugh, for always putting a smile on my face whenever I see you...
5)for having that faith that everything will be alright, for seeing things brightly in your eyes.for making me feel, life is good because you are around.
6)for making things easier for me. for helping me in anyway you can and for making me believe in my capabilities and all I can do..
7)for assuring me that everything will be alright..for making me believe that life is not that hard at all
8)for giving respect to my parents and for having their approval of our relationship
9) for planning our future and striving harder for us...
10) and most of all, just by existing and coming into my life...and for not making me wait to long.

I love you J0jo, I may never be able to express it all but I hope through this youll be able to understand. You are the last and I intend to spend this lifetime with you... i love you...

THINGS IVE LEARNED ABOUT LOVE

There were certain things that Ive realized about loving someone---
1) this is a game- you will either lose or win
2) when you love someone, you should accept all of what he is, you can never change him unless you yourself will change. learn to appreciate every litte thing he does and don't look for things that are not there in the first place.
3)never compare him to anyone else-you should be the one to give him the security that he needs.Never ever let him feel insecure in any way-that he is not good enough...
4)compliment- make known to him that you appreciate every little piece of goodness he is
showing you.
5)TRUST-whatever the circumstances are, you should always give him the benefit of the
doubt, after all, you know him more than anyone else....

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

"...he's the man..."

There's so many things about him that I love-the way he looks at me, the way he makes me feel I am loved and the way he assures me that I am the prettiest girl in the world. Yesterday we were together the whole day, I really felt that he is so concerned and that he is willing to sacrifice everything for me. I asked him not to go to work because we have to go to the police station and file a case against my ex bf who is harassing me. I know he is willing to fight for me and though there are certain things I dont like about him, the good points outnumbered the bad ones. I love him for who he is and what he will be---I know that he is a gift from God. I love him because He is adopting my faith...we never say our goodnyts without praying together.I hope God would bless this relationship..."

Monday, July 26, 2004

My Guy

I used to like a guy whose sweet, thoughtful and full of exciting stories to tell, jokes to crack about and many other adventures in life...I want a man that I can boast to the whole world---but now Ive realized I just need one thing from the person I would someday marry---faith in God . when I have it---all the good qualities of a person will come out naturally in him. Im very thankful that he is Godfearing...that he is'nt like other man, that he is unique.He has this longing to know more about the God I serve...this way, this relationship will stand until the end coz
the author of the universe is the one holding it.

Sunday, July 25, 2004

" i KnoW it's Him"

We had the chance to talk last Friday, after our Webex meeting, I hurriedly dialled his number to know if he already came home-but i was frightened by the voice that answere, it's his ate. I really don't like her..maybe because of how he is treating him, she always want him to put down the phone whenever we had the chance to talk. So I just stayed at the internet cafe for an hour-
then my officemate called me up saying someone wants to talk to me..and only God knows how I felt I heard his voice. I love him, whoever he is...I love him. When he I saw him-I want to hug him tight and kiss him but instead he kissed me on the cheek, just a sweet pat on the cheek and I know immediately that he is not mad at all. How lucky am i to have known him-to have loved someone like him...We talked and from the tone of his voice-I know that he loves me so much that he is willing to change and I can never forget what he told me that night..
"I will do everything to make you happy...even if it means I have to change all that I am for you..." - I now know God blessed me with someone more that I asked for.

Friday, July 23, 2004

"...i must adjust"

If I want to change him...It must begin with me. I can'not change a person overnyt. One must give way, and in our case...it should be me. I talked to him yesterday and I asked for a cool off.
Of course it's not really what I want, but I need to say those things for him to realize that this is a serious matter, we really need to talk. I want him to know that I am getting bored with our relationship, that something must be done. I think I really want a tough guy, someone who can make me obey, someone who can tell me things that I should do and follow him as he instructed me. He must have the balls to tame me-and I can't see it in him. I know he always obey me because he loves me so much and he doesnt want to create a conflict between us. Many says Im very lucky to have the kindest boyfriend in the world..but in the back of my mind, am i?...

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

"Love me for what I am..."

 
Of course I should'nt compare him with my ex-they are two different people...they have different ways of treating their girlfriends...but I cant help it, I used to be with the sweetest
person in the world...then suddenly- Im with someone I dont know if is really sincere..(well yeah, I should'nt doubt him), perhaps he's just not the "showy type", but Im beginning to get
bored. I just hope I can get away with this feeling...I talked to him last night, I know he is aware that we have a problem but still...he keeps on telling what happened to him in the office, he keeps on telling me how much he loves me...he is just putting an icing to the cake. Those sweet talks just adds up to my anger because he is not pointing to the real problem. I just hope on our

next talk, he will notice that I wanted more. I want him to feel deeper, I want him to search the
inner me. We cant go on like this...


Sunday, July 18, 2004

I Am Bored!

Perhaps there came a time in a man's life that you get bored in life...I mean those routinary activities you do wether in your work, in your hobbies...or perhaps in the totality of your life.
Everythings seems to be an event somehow had already came your way...maybe that's what I felt at those time...I felt bored, I felt I need an adventure and I thank God..he answered my call.
Everything was plain and simple till he came...he gave color to my world. It seems like he's singing everybody's favourite "Because of you" in a different melody and beat. But it was not that simple...I am the one who paved the way for this relationship. I feel I need to do something so that I can be happy in my life...and I proud to say, it pays to do the first step. Nobody else in the world can make you happy besides yourself....

Friday, July 16, 2004

It Was This Day

It was an ordinary day...i hurriedly rushed home from a very stressful day at the office. No magic, such a plain...ordinary day...Suddenly the phone rang,
maybe, I thought it would be for my mom, perhaps tita would like to talk to her regarding their company outing...when I said hello, an unfamiliar voice answered and he is looking for me...I never thought that at that same time...
the prayer that I have been praying for so long would be answered....God led Him to me......

Thursday, July 15, 2004

My Life

I created this site so that I could reach out to others and glorify the one who sent me...